bad or good..its all based on your perception

Am I a good girl??
Its quite a difficult question to answer..
Wish to know more about myself,
but then seems like its too complicated

I don't know whether my action, attitude and perception is correct or false
but then some time I might out of control n doens't meant it
please dont simply guess my personality from your first perception
cause its really take time to know more about me

I don't know whether I am good or bad
But how are we going to define excellent or terrible??
there is no a specific parameter

Lets by gone be by gone
I can still continue my life
with my own pace
I know the road is difficult
n the obstacle is very huge

somekind it might be invisible
not allowing me to view it
only realised when you accidentally knocked on it

But sometime obstacle is good
in term of gaining knowledge and make yourself more mature

thanks god i had experienced the scary nightmare
and i know i will be able to handle it well in the future

*你应该不知道,伪装的笑容,背后藏着几公升的眼泪.
你不知道我为什么能横下心, 对一切的一切逆来顺受的理由
你不知道我很脆弱,脆弱到摔了一跤,可能就再也爬不起
你不知道当你天使般的形象被你亲手摧毁时,深深地捏杀了我的无知和天真
咖啡会变冷,是因为它缺氧,无法呼吸
天空会变黑,是因为没有了太阳的陪伴,在绝望里失去光芒**